•My sweet husband•

 This week will be three weeks since CANcer was removed from my body. We meet tomorrow with a medical oncologist to discuss radiation and/or chemotherapy.

I feel as though Im recovering so well and I know it wouldn't be the case without God, all yalls prayers and this man!

I knew Austin loved me without a doubt and would do anything at all for me. However, I am not sure that words can do justice at this time for just how amazing he is.

Austin was in Kentucky for work when I was first told by my biopsy Dr that she thought I had breast cancer. We of course were not expecting that kind of news at a biopsy appointment. He was so upset he wasn't here for me, but still being a "maybe", it was okay.

My biopsy was on a Tuesday, the following Monday he was sitting across from me as my OB came in to tell me I had breast cancer. Immediately Austin told me not to google breast cancer, stay positive and we'll beat this while he handles everything.

I never made one appointment for myself, he handled all of it. He was at every visit, asking all the questions, writing down all the answers, reminding me of the answers later when I couldn't remember and reassuring me, praying over me and comforting me in every moment. If he ever had fear, I never saw it. He reminded me to stay strong, have Faith and go to God with my fears. He let me cry a lot of nights on the couch, venting my fears and frustrations while holding me tight.

He helped me understand my diagnosis, helped me understand my options, helped me in the Doctor visits understand just what they were explaining and had done a ton of research to help know what all of my options were and so he knew ahead of time just what to ask.

Thankfully all of our appointments got underway really fast and we were able to get surgery booked in a timely manner and begin the next stage of healing.

Every item I thought I needed post mastectomy, was ordered, no questions asked. Austin took two weeks of FMLA.."vacation " (sarcasm).

The day of surgery Austin was waiting for me at the hospital for 9 hours. He slept on the couch in the hospital the first night to be with me. He was of sound mind to remember anything and everything that was discussed for me.

He looked over all of my incisions, went over the care process, the binder / bra process, the medicine protocol and the shower rules.

Thank God he gave me Austin. Here we are almost three weeks out and I have just now been able to see my stomach, from above,no mirror yet.

You don't realize just what it takes to care for a grown adult and two young children. From the day I got home Austin has had alarms set all through the night to stay on top of my pain medications, he has been our entire household care taker. Not only bathing the kids but myself also. He has spent two weeks on hard tile floor, in front of a heater (because Im cold) unbuttoning my post surgery bra with 50 hooks, taking off the layers of velcro from my stomach binder, while avoiding bumping my three drains and one sponge since those spots are so sensitive all the while making sure I am not lightheaded and passing out , getting me in the shower, again avoiding all drains to scrub me up quick enough to prevent me getting lightheaded but long enough to make sure Im clean to keep infections at bay. Once out of the shower he's back on his knees, covered in sweat, drying me off ever so gently, avoiding drains and incisions, putting that surgery bra back on, inserting gauze around drains since the bra can make them pinch, putting my stomach binder back on,again avoiding all these drains, helping me get dressed, stripping my drains, measuring my drain out put, cleaning up the bathroom and starting the laundry since I shower every day and only have two bras. Oh and don't forget the compression leg garments, all the buttons on my pajamas, the pillows under my legs when I go to sit or sleep, the pillows under my arms, helping me in and out of bed and did I mention my long hair!?

My hair is very long, so long that the first time post surgery when Austin went to brush my hair and get all the tangles out, it took almost 30 minutes. After working on my hair so long he learned to braid it. The following week it REALLY needed to be washed, so he tackled washing my hair in the sink, brushing out allllll the tangles and blow drying it! Again, taking care of me in the most gentle,kind ways!

He's been flying solo with breakfast duties, lunch duties, meal train clean up, dishes, laundry EVERY.DAY, bed time, bath ,repeat.

When my drains were removed I am not sure who was more happy! Myself or Austin! Now you'd think his load would lighten, but this girl still cant look at the new me, or touch it so he's still helping me shower.

True love. I know I could not have made it this far without him, I'm honestly not sure what the heck I would have done had he not stepped up in ALL THE WAYS. I am beyond grateful for everything Austin has done for me. I knew he was good to me, I knew he loved me but his actions have forever made a mark on my heart and our marriage. I love you Austin and all the ways you love me, take care of me and have tended to our boys. You amaze me. Thank you for loving me and showing our boys how a man should treat his wife. You have loved me and our family the way God has called you to and I am so thankful to have you on this journey with me.